Single, once again

So it turns out that dating Joe just doesn't work for me.  For one, he wasn't trying very hard.  Joe said he still isn't "feeling" it and he certainly let it show.  I just wish he would've told me he wasn't feeling it.  But that would've involved communicating, so obviously, it was just better that he didn't say anything to me, let me feel like an idiot for weeks thinking we were "trying" to work on it, get frustrated when the "working on it" wasn't working very well then make me guess and pull teeth to get him admit to me that he's just not feeling it.  Second, I can never look at him as my boyfriend ever again.  It doesn't work like that.  At least not for me.  He's my husband, not my boyfriend.  He can never be my boyfriend again. We've moved beyond ever being casual with each other.  So I'm moving on.  And told him to do the same.

So lately, I've been wondering how the hell I am ever going to want to put up with someone else's shit crazy  ever again.  The thought of learning all about someone else's crazy is just crazy.  It was easy when I was in my early 20's with no kids and no true responsibilities.  But it's not like that anymore.  I think I'm more picky now.  And have more requirements.

It's been a very long time since I've dated.  I think I am definitely going to have some deal breakers.  What if he wants to have a conversation with me before my morning coffee?  What if he wants me to **GASP** go to a college football game?  Or watch it on TV!?  Or go to a Jimmy Buffet concert?  OMG, you guys, what if he is in love with Disney characters or going to Disney World or something?  Yikes, I just don't know how I'm going to do this.  Is it inappropriate to ask a guy on the first date if he has ever mowed a lawn before?  And no, that's not a sexual innuendo.

How am I ever going to feeling truly comfortable with someone else ever again?  The thought of being comfortable enough with someone else to let them see all of my gray hair, see me with no make up on, or see me in my PJ's until 3pm because I got sucked into an all day Scrubs marathon through Netflix is certainly daunting.  But I guess it will happen.  It happens for other people.

Coming up on my blog... Scenes from the dating world...